May 15, 2010
I don’t know what’s happening to me! I’m having the strangest dreams, about some guy I know for a fact I’ve never met before in my life. It is the same dream every time: I am at a party and there are tons of people. I don’t know exactly where I am, but I’m in a house because I walk out a back door into the yard and he is sitting on a yard swing, waiting for me. He’s just sitting there staring at me, with his curly light brown hair, in blue jeans and a graphic tee. And I start to get a little creeped out and I think to myself, ‘What’s his deal?’ And it’s like he hears me or something, because he gets up and starts to walk toward me. But before he gets to me he is intercepted by Lexi, the president of my sorority. And he stands there with this bored look on his face, drinking a beer, scanning the faces of the crowd. I like to imagine that he is searching for me, but why would he?
I mean, we don’t even know each other.
And when I wake up, I feel, well, euphoric is the best word I can choose to describe it. Like just seeing him makes me the happiest I’ve ever been. My heart is full of hope and joy, at least for the first hour or so after waking up. And I remember this dream, probably because I’ve had it every night for the past two weeks. In fact, after my dedication on
Beltane, I fell asleep on the couch and first dreamed of him. That first one was very simple, just him on the swing. Every dream since then has added more of the scenery or new characters, and feelings. Lots of feelings. Mostly just happiness, but any of the emotions I feel are amplified somehow.
So, who is he? And why am I dreaming about him every night? I don’t know, but maybe, eventually, he’ll tell me.